A Shift In Plans

I am not really sure how to start this off or where this is actually going to go so….here we go! After having the babies, I have just felt super off..I couldn’t figure out what was going on. I’ve been thru a lot over the last few years, so I chalked it up to all of the stuff with my mom my divorce, the huge changes in my life and then on top of it having two babies back to back and figured it would all get better over the next few months. You know the whole 9 months in 9 months out mindset…well here we are at 9 months since having Magnolia (well 10 now, but when this latest doctors appointment took place she we 8 months.) So wait let me give you some backstory first I guess!

Before we had Magnolia we had a miscarriage. We got pregnant again right after, so with that I had to have weekly blood draws, one of them came back with my thyroid being off. So I went to my primary for additional testing, they were thinking I had Graves disease, after additional testing she wasn’t worried about it and put me on a tincture for the anxiety I was having and sent me on my way. I had more blood work done half way thru pregnancy with Magnolia and there were no alarming issues with my thyroid so we figured everything was back to normal. 

Once we moved down to Southern California I decided I wanted to get my hormones checked and get my body back in line. So I met with a doctor, got the blood work and all that jazz she set me up on supplements to help get everything back in line. It was HORRIBLE! I was so sick from everything she put me on, when I tried reaching out to get assistance, she never responded…so it left a bad taste in my mouth. So when we moved to Arizona my husband was like okay you have to get looked at, this isn’t normal. And I agree, I was/am super depressed, crying all the time, don’t want to leave the house…it has been rough. So I found a highly rated hormone specialist in Scottsdale. She genuinely cared, I felt like I instantly connected with her. So she went thru all of my previous work and was concerned about a possible autoimmune disease that no one else paid any attention to. So 13 vitals of blood work later, and a food sensitivity test here we are.

Last Friday we got the lab work results back and went over them…I knew my iron levels where low, and my estrogen was high…but had no idea anything about insulin resistance or much about the thyroid or what Hashimotos disease is. And honestly I still don’t fully understand it all, but I am sure I will know more than I ever wanted to in a short amount of time, since I have both. 

So the first thing recommended is to cut out Gluten…funny thing is, I have had allergies to gluten before…so this isn’t new. But gluten has been known to trigger “Hashimoto Storms” so cheers to being gluten free and getting my life back! I am sure I will write updates here and there about this journey, so stay tuned!

x0_meagen lea

Hummingbirds and Flip Flops

I’ll start this off saying grief is a strange, strange thing. There are good days, there are bad days, there are days where you feel lost, hopeless and the tears won’t stop falling, there are days were you feel like you have got it all under control and are on top of the world. There are also days where little things remind you of what once was. So with that being said…I got my mom hooked on Haviannas flip flops (they are literally the best!) I have always been a hoarder of every color flip flops and sandals imaginable…good thing I finally got out of Washington…but now my closet has a lot of boots that don’t really fit in here! Anywho, so my mom only like them after they were broken in, I mean who doesn’t? New shoes always fit weird, give you blisters all the things. So whenever she would want or need a new pair she would buy me a new pair and ask for my old ones or have me wear new ones and give them to her. That was just the relationship we had, she was my best friend. 

So the other day I looking online to order some for just going in the backyard that I didn’t mind if they got dirty, dusty, all the things. And my son goes into my closet and pulls some Haviannas out of my closet, its like he knew somehow (he is only 2) The rest of that day my mom (I wrote a blog post a few months ago called The Hummingbird Amongst) she comes back to visit in the form of a hummingbird stopped by not just once but 5 different times. I don’t know exactly what happens after we leave this current present state, but it is so nice to feel her presence and even though Anchor never had the chance to meet her, I know he still connects with her. ❤ 

At some point in the near future I’ll sit down and write out my last encounter with the medium and connecting with her. I’m not quiet ready, but it is a story that is too good not to share.

x0_meagen lea